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11月26日 Stop to think carefullyWhatever doing or being going to do anything, the key point is thinking carefully. Before beginning, think the aim, the method and the possibility. In progress,think if it is right and how to revise.Either the subjective factors or objective circumstances are always changing constantly. So the timely espond is a necessary ability. The timely respond depend on the accurate estimation after thinking carefully. It is the just reason that thinking carefully is the key point of doing something.
Usally, I will stop to rethink what I am doing. In past, I always made mistake or was confused without the short stop. By analysis, I found it is because that a plan always may not be able to keep up with changes. How could not make mistake and be confused when being too tired to deal with those changes. So stopping to think how to do is necessary. At least, it is necessary to me.
At the end of the month, I stopped and thought again now, not only for working better and better recently but also accelerating to have a good yearly ending. 11月23日 USA VisaGoing to the US embassy for visa is a hard job. The Long waiting line and strict VO. So people always will be afraid of going to visa at US embassy. Of course, many people have some illegal attempt. And it is the main reason that visaing to US is more stricter than other countries.
Today, it was the second time that I went to the US embassy for visa. For Not knowing the relative policy, I missd the deadline of automatic extention. I hate the tedious process but I was not afraid anymore with the good reason and record. To be congratulated, I got the visa again. And I would not forget extention it anymore.
American, I will come again soon.HHHH 11月2日 An indicatorYesterday, it first snowed this year. So I changed my schedule to stay at home.
Read, and watched TV, then I suddenly found not having listened to music for little long time. It meant that my mentality was restless recently. Of course, it was true, and it was not good.
The good thing is that I had such an good indicator as to be able to found the problem in time. The indicator just is music. Usually, what type of music I listen to just indicate how my mentality is. Classic means gentle. Pop means restless. Old songs mean calm. New songs mean excitement.For the long time examination, it would always work. 10月25日 煎药昨日为家人煎药，偶得一感。
中药，往往需要三煎或两煎以备一日多次服用。由于是一剂多次煎煮，所以每次所需的水量和不同。第一煎时，直接向锅中注水。由于药清，所以随水入而浮，所以很难估量水与药的比例。只能凭感觉适可止。至第二煎，改用杯注水。瞬时发觉，甚是容易评判水量。至第三煎已得心应手。
由此，又想到另一事。自老妈故去，经常自己炒菜做饭。初时，也是拿捏不好分寸，遂时好时差，质量忽高忽低。惶惶然，不知如何化解。
如今想来，其实两事同理。既无有规矩难成方圆，又有量度难成鲜好。其实，很多文章中也提到此事，即中餐中药与西餐西药之分别。西法，崇尚定量。先实验，推导归纳，已成定数，后成品推广。而中道，崇尚随缘。凡是因人而异，概无定数。即便有些成例，也是积少成多，凭各人经验归纳，口传心受，且多无量法，全看后辈灵性。于是，所谓传承，传往往多于承。因而，代代相传，往往后继乏善。
其实，中西二者，西法为本，中道为用。即，做任何事，都要有一个基本规矩，这样才便于参照和传承。至于用时，再依照个体和时事的是非好恶量度调较而行，或甜，或咸，或阴，或阳。由大及小，煎药炒菜时，才能把握如何而能得药性，如何而能获美味。并且可以一而在再，再而三。即便突发求变之想，也知道如何而得阳，如何而得阴，如何而得酸，如何而得辣。如果由小而大，做人亦乎如此。有则守则，知礼守礼，才能行为有度，处事得体，收放自如。
此理，与治大国，如烹小鲜，岂不有异曲同工之妙！真是呜呼哀哉也。哈哈哈哈！ 10月23日 老成少年老成，在中文里是一个带有些许异样气质的褒义词。在多数情况下，它是带有夸奖的意味，可隐隐之中，却又有一丝似褒非褒、似贬非贬的意境。其内里，多少和城府这个词有些瓜葛。因为少年老成往往是指人年岁不大却城府很深。而城府很深就难免让人想到老谋深算，最好敬而远之。其实，老成一词还可做另一解，那就是老成持重。这里的重点不在老成而在持重。其实，少年老成也罢，老成持重也罢，根本上其实说的是这个重字。一如中庸一词一样，由原来持中节制演变成后来的明哲保身。中国文化的至精最终没有承受住世俗的浊涤而彻底庸俗化。
说实在，我对少年老成的理解一直就是这么世俗的。只是随着看的书多了，就日益有了微妙的变化。时至今日，以然恨自己没有少年老成。我之所理解的少年老成，却是于觉悟一次有些瓜葛。我相信这世上多数人与我一样，到了一把年纪时会忽悠醍醐灌顶的一刻。于是乎顿足捶胸，心想少年时怎么没有这个见识。自古有少年得志者，也有大器晚成者，当然更多是一世浑浑噩噩不知所以者。之余后两者，前者是多么令人艳羡啊！如能于少年时茅塞顿开，既能够发愤图强，又能够满怀抱负，还能够明世懂礼，更能够一以贯之，那这一生是何等幸哉快哉啊！既不会误入歧途，更不会关怀悲切，有胆有识，有志有业，即便不是纵横天下，也是内里乾坤。如此之少年老成岂不强于老年老成，更强于老年不成呢！相信，人生由此一叹者，绝非我一人！
莫等闲，拜了少年头，空悲切。这是我们少年时就读咏的名句。少小不努力，老大徒伤悲。更是儿时必背的歌谣。真所谓，有见无视，才有日后徒劳的感伤。随如今，尚可求一个中年老成，但真有虚度光阴十几载的扼腕之痛啊！真可惜覆水难收，再如何知羞后勇也难收离弦之箭。只能咽下落于人后的苦酒，搏命一追了。
少年老成，一个带有些许异样气质的褒义词。待我们明白过来，才知道这也许就是造化设下的迷局。考验我们的智慧，扶助我们通明人生的通途，觉悟人生的真谛。无所谓少年，无所谓老年，重在有成，更重在成而能持重。我们用一生追求有成，或面南背北，或富可敌国，或才高德望，总之要求所成，要知何以成，更要知成如何。还是那句话，少年老成也罢，老年老成也罢，要能老成持重。
故如今，羡少年老成悔不当初已是徒劳，求老年老成奋起直追犹可一搏。正所谓，时不待我，只争朝夕。有成是幸甚之事，无成也求无愧无悔，只是切不可老而无为，更不可成而胡为。由此，才能不负天地之造化，天地也必不会负吾等。切记，切记。 10月9日 旅行与深居这个假期没有去旅游。很多朋友说，这很不像我的风格。其实，这真的就是我的风格。
本计划是要旅行的，由于客观和主观的双重原因，计划取消了。对此，我既遗憾，也很释然。遗憾的是，我放弃了一个心驰已久的的计划。释然的是，享受了一个难得清静假期。计划推迟了还可以再去，旅行未必就意味着烦乱，冥神静修却能给人以别样的炼涤。
相比而言，我更喜欢独行。在塞上高原信马由缰，在古城山村若醉若痴，好不惬意！如不能此，那我宁愿选择偏居陋室之中，读书品茶。不是为金玉，而是空有。在天地之间，固然能得日月之灵气，感悟自然之道理；但我辈终还是在世上游走的俗物，超然之余，还要立世做人。旅行可以令人放下，而深居反能让人拿起。二者异曲同工的告诉我们要举重若轻，要拿得起放得下，要知拿起什么，要知放下哪宗，要知拿之所来，要知放之所去。故我好游行，亦乐深居。二者于人生，实是缺一不可。
所以，与其盲动，不如不动，与其互为，不如不为。动中有静，静中有动；动中取静，竟中取动，二者相应成趣，相映生辉，人生之至也。故游我所好，居亦我所好，取舍有度，相得益彰，人生幸幸也。 10月7日 饺子与打卤面国庆节去老姨家串门。自从老妈走了以后，逢年过节就是我张罗去走动的事了。其实道理很简单，就是不能因为老妈不在了，让亲戚疏远了，更不能让他们说老妈的孩子不懂事。当然，还有一点私心，就是能吃上一顿可口的家常菜。虽说，老妈的手艺我继承了十之七八。可以，说道下厨房，我还真就是提不起兴趣。一个字，“懒”。
一个月前，就琢磨着吃顿饺子，可就是狠不心来动手。再加上这事那事的，就一直没吃成。恰逢过节，老姨也是心有灵犀，所以美美的吃了个肚歪。临走，还打包带回家。其后两天，都是煎饺。由于减肥，也没吃别的。所以，八天长假，足足有三天是靠饺子撑过来的。
三号去看朋友的老妈。一进去，发现病床的上的阿姨活脱就是有一个老妈。一股心酸犹然而生。一是看着阿姨受苦之态，颇为神伤；再就是回忆老妈当初的样子，怎能感伤呢。自从老妈走后，这是第二次探病房了。上次也是一个朋友老妈。（人已经不在了。）不知为什么，看到深受病痛折磨的老人，真有为之赴汤蹈火，肝脑涂地的心。这时候，往往后悔自己当初怎么就没坚持学医呢？！（当年，不是老妈反对，自己肯定选择读医了。这也许就是冥冥之中的天意吧。）
说来也巧，和朋友为她老妈祈福后说到吃啥的时，她竟然最想的也是饺子。唉！我真是太能理解她了。没有老妈下厨，再想吃顿可口的家常菜就变成奢望了！也许是年龄的原因，如今通病相连的朋友越来越多。看着一个一个或强颜欢笑，或黯然神伤，或满面愁容，好一番凄楚之情啊。
每每此时，就想起老妈为我做的最后一碗打卤面。那是我的生日面，也是老妈为我做的最后一顿饭。两天后，我和她就天各一方，都没有说上一句告别的话。每每想起，都让我撕心裂肺，痛不欲生。（说实话，人真是无良。苟且在这世上，还说什么欲生欲死。真叫大言不惭，无情无义。）
说什么悔不当初，太过苍白和做作。况且也没有那个了断的勇气。现如今，也真有寄希望在临人身上寻些补偿的机会。（其实，说来还是自私。不过是给自己开脱的借口而已。）
不说那些没用的了。希望还有机会床前尽孝的朋友们，珍惜难得时日，多和父母亲近，多花些时间和心思报答他们，给他们快乐。也祝愿所有的父母，健康长寿。更祝愿在天的老妈，认主归真，福泰嘉和。 10月4日 Marriage and BearingSomeone asked why you was not married? Someone asked why you did not want to have a baby? I always answered who said it? I have ever wanted to marry someone. I had ever wanted to have a baby with someone. But it was pity that I was not luchy enough.
I think marriage and bearing is holy. We need marriage and bearing is for love more than reproduction.I have ever loved several girls. But there is only one who I want to have a baby with her.
Human being is sensitive. So we will like and love someone inexplicably. We always said it is because of feeling. What is feeling? Sometime it is affection. Sometime it is love. How many people get married is ont only for affection or some utilitarian reason but for true love? I do not know. But I hope so.
In the same way, many people make babies is not for true love. I do not like it.
So I want to get married with someone and make babies with someone verymuch. And she must be my truelove. Or else, I would rather be waiting forever. But to be honest, I will doubt if I could meet her this life and hesitate if I could stick it out. 10月1日 致我的青春《岁月如歌》。听着崔健，邓丽君，老狼，真是生生入耳，句句动心。本来很困，悠扬的旋律却让我恋恋不舍。也不知，是不舍靡靡的温婉，还是怀念逝去的青春。
一直自诩年轻，却蓦然发现其实是在自欺欺人。青春的可贵，既不是时光的短暂，也不是任性的轻狂，更不是懵懂的悸动。只有精神的纯净，才能诠释青春的内涵。正如节目中所说，如今再没有崔健，邓丽君，老狼。是因为现在的世界太纷繁，太早熟，以致于连小孩子的眼睛中都闪烁着成人的狡黠。无论我们多么精力充沛，不管我们怎样与时俱进，我们不再如曾经的纯净。社会如是，我们也如是。
所以，真正不舍的，也许是我们曾经青春时的岁月，和我们不会再有的纯净。
昨天还在和朋友讨论，是应该独善其身，还是从恶如流。在当今的时代，这似乎已经由不得我们选择了。也许只有此时，我们才能真正明白为什么说大隐隐于市。出污泥而不染，这不仅需要傲骨，更需要智慧。只可惜，这仍超不出小乘的境界。所以，再怎么“大”，也是俗人的自以为是罢了。我们都是俗人，终是跳不出烦嚣。难回纯净，就更不用说什么济世度人了。也许这才是佛祖在菩提下参悟到无上智慧。人生修苦，但不是苦修。要修的不是吾身而是吾心，要修的不是明白而是忘却。只有由衷无觉的放下，我们才能回到纯净，才能真正永保青春。
致我的青春。无论逝去与否，也没多少不舍。毕竟懂得留恋就不会信马由缰，知道玩味就不会年少轻狂。青春驻定在回忆中更美好。只是我们是否还能以青春的心去回味，是否还能以纯净的心去追求。 9月29日 Real VacationTomorrow, Chinese will begin to have a longest public vacation since the beginning of China history. How to spend these days? Most of Chinese choose returning homeland or travelling. I choose staying at home. Of course, It is a choice being differ from my original plan. If the well-known riot dii not break out, I would be travelling at NW China now. Even though, I originally plan to finish the trip before or at the beginning of the National Holiday.
Usually I will not arrange the travelling during th pulice holiday. It is because that the heavy traffic and numerous tourist will have the scene and the interest abaten greatly. And I think that either travelling and vacationing should be relaxing and cozy. The noise and the crowd will spoil the rest mood. So after comfiming the plan must be canceled, I know I could have a real vacation at home. Someone said I would waste the time. I do not think so. I think I just enjoy the time. 9月24日 The Business TripI will go on a business trip today. I am very happy. It is because that I like trip very much and I think looking around where to go within the business trip is very relaxing and economical. Till today, I have travelled most cities of China and some countries when I went on the business trip.
Of course, I also like to travel somewhere alone. It will have you feeling really free and cozy. It is pity that I have to cancle my plan to NW China this month becuase of riots erupted over there. But I am lucky too. I have chance of horseback riding to Bashang grassland and going on a business trip. It is maybe a kind of counterbalance which God give.
I have decided to stay home during National Day Holiday. The business trip to Xi'an should be my holiday trip too.
By the way, happy holiday, my friends. Take care of H1N1. It have spread widerly at some places. 9月1日 My heart came looseBilliard, Golf, Travelling and so on, I just could not focus on my job. It had been a rule that I hardly updated my blog as I kept working hard or be lazy.
Now it was work again. My heart had come loose for serveral days. I do not like it. I wish that I could always foucus on my works, studies or plays on its
time. But I always could not do it well. I do not like it.
Ok, I had a good morning. And my staff need my help for a contract. I have got to go. 7月8日 LanguageIf someone asks me what is the most important ability to us at present ages, I will tell you it is language immediately. The distance is being shorter and shorter. The time is being quicker and quicker. The world is being smaller and smaller. People is being closer and closer. Modern communication and transport have the space-time gate opening at will. Everything and ourselves all have been globalized. We need and have to facing whole world. So we might need to communicate with some foreigner at any moment. It might impact the success of your business or the happiness of your life. The good luck will only be in favor of who has been prepared. Here, who has no difficulty in communication will absolutely be the luck man. It is pity that foreign language is my weakness. Though I have been trying to improve it, the progress is not too. Till today, I can still only understand 5% English dialogue of a Hollywood film or teleplay. How can I make the better progress? I think the only way is making more efforts, read more, listen more and write more.
The new season of studying English has begun in state now. Go! Go! Go! 6月25日 Diary's FunctionSuddenly I wake up to an very important function of diary. It is to have person being quiet. Being enveloped by the noisiness and the busy all day, whole man still is restless even though have been back home. Except listening music, reading book and falling asleep, writeing something calmly is another good method to having person escaping and relaxing.
6月23日 再一次日记其实有两大作用，一个是述说心声，自说自话；另一个则是记录心路，岁月留声。
从小写日记，可从来没坚持住。开始，日记是一种功课，所以很抵触，不爱写；后来，作为一个自我排解的通道，写日记全由心情，搞得三天打鱼两天晒网的。 这一次，又有好久没有写日记了。不是没心事，而是改成写博客了。博客的好处是可以遇到些何以和你聊聊的网友；弊端是不能毫无保留的由性的来。当然，还有一点，是让我最终走回到日记簙的原因。那就是，自己的文字，放在人家那，终究不放心。不过这次比以前还是做了些改变，那就是舍弃本子，改用电脑。说实话，我喜欢用笔写。就如同很多人至今仍然选择纸信。用笔有一种挥洒的感觉，是一种酣畅的宣泄。用电脑，这种感觉就差些。唯一的优点，可能是便于保存和查阅。总之，我这次选了电脑笔记薄。算是一种这种吧。 前面说过，日记有两大作用，之前，我只意识或者说选择了它的第一个作用。接下来，我想把两方面都作用都体用到。即便没什么心事，也算是为今日留下一个痕迹。 PS:大梦 （背景很模糊，有点古时的意思。）身处一个小村庄，一些旧屋，一片树林，林中竖立着一座古塔，塔中含有一个神庙的玲珑。一日，不知为什么走入树林，发现有两个木桩撑着古塔。由于日久，木桩已经腐朽。正观望间，木桩腐朽而断。瞬时，古塔开始下陷。在即将没入地面的之时，我抢出了玲珑。正当我抱着玲珑不知所措之时，从林间传出两只彩狮，（有如“黄飞鸿——狮王争霸”中的那种）。不知善恶，打算狂本逃命。又闪出一个看塔人样的拦路者。一看，竟是熟人。（可惜不记得了。）苦口婆心劝说他，同走。（一样不记得说了什么。）他同意了。一起逃回村子，（不记得狮子还在身后，还是不见了。似乎是没了踪影，）发现村里遭了灾，（到底是什么灾，还是没记住，只是）一个人都没有。惶惶然间，醒了。 6月16日 The Anniversary GiftToday rain again. I like rain. Recently, I like it much because of planting two pine trees and some flower around Mom's tomb. God must think Mom is very good person too. It is because that it has rained several times since I planted them. As everybody knows, Beijing is an arid region. Before planting, I am afraid of not raining. It is the gift to Mom's anniversary. I hope that they can grow up well. To be lucky, the rain should be enough. Maybe it is just the gift from God.
Thanks, God. Happy in heaven, Mom. 6月10日 SeedlingThis Saturday is the second annversary of mom's death. I plan to plant two seedlings in front of her tomb. I had dug the holes. But I could not buy the seedlings. The time is drawing near. So I tried again.
I almost had gone to every gardening shop that I know. But I did not found my favorite. So I had to change my plan. I bought some flower seeds and put my hope on the mausoleum' services. I guessed they have this kind of services because that I remember of ever seeing the seedlings in their yard. God bless my memory is right. 6月2日 Talk with selfFor serveral days, I had not written the diary.
Diary is not only the way to record one's life but also to keep mental health. People usually should have a way to speak own heart. Someone choose talk with family, friend, or psychologist. And someone choose talk with self. The diary is the best way to do it. At least, I think so. It is the pity that I always can not keep holding on. So the dairy seem like a friend. As everything is right, I often will forget it. As meeting some problem or being idlesse, I will think of it. I almost have not any confidant. The diary is just my closest confidant. And it is vey kind to accompany me and be on call.
I do not know why thinking of it today. The business is steady and many works is waiting for me. Maybe it is just because that I need to talk with self. Whatever, I do need often to talk with self, I do need often to talk with my best friend. 2月16日 Valentine's DayToday is the Valentine's Day. As the past years, I choose staying at home.
The first reason is that too many people will choose to date at today. So all over the city will be crowd and noisy. How could to feel the romantic in the atmospher?
The second reason is that I think that the Valentine's day is the day for some special ceremonial, for example, expressing, proposing and so on. But I will not choose the Valentine's day if I wanna do so. And I am still not ready to do so this year.
For having a quiet weekend, I have my Valentine's day at home by writing and reading some thing. Wish everyone meeting ideal mate and having own Valentine's day in every day of the life. 2月1日 Rolling ByWonderful days always will roll by. The weather is better and better. And the holiday is closer and closer to the end. Sometime I am just so inconsistent. One side I hope having the quiet and cozy day forever, the other side I would like to enjoy my working farthest. I believe that most people is like me.
Tomorrow, I will start off to home. Here, weather is cold, food is not tasty, language is hard to understand, sanitation is not good. But here, environment is quiet, air is clean, life is simple. In these days, all unfavorable things have left me far away. Everything is easy. Would I have better holiday than it? If there is air-condition, I am glad to have every holiday here. HH! I think it also will be very easy. I like the countryside. I like the country life. Thanks everyone, who have cooked for me, who have given the greeting to me, who have care for me. Especially, thanks for you, CHTHH. Happy new year, everyone. See you next time. |
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